dear diaree.
i guess its jst one of those times in life when yoo sit and bask in everything yoo`ve done that has succeeded so far, but then realise that no one`s gna hugg yoo to say that their proud of yoo.
hahas okays thats abit extreme, i can think of my friends who would (: but yoo knw waht i mean diaree. hahas. there are a million white light stars, jst which one should i dare to make my wish on?
i guess its the fact that everyone is soo mushifiedd lately. lols. oh wells. i guess he`s out there on his way, jst got lost and too stubborn to ask for directions hahas as the angsty teenage quote goes. lols.
i wont deny the fact that my heart is still only mine. and my friends. there`s no one that im willing to totally give it away to yet, cos im not convinced. maybe i expect too much *shrugs. but would yoo want me any other way? hahas. thats a rheotorical qn, not to be used in compos lols.
i think this is one of those talking to yourself in the mirror and finding yourself in your reflection, jst that yoo`re staring at the com with music in your ears. right now its `wonderall - oasis`
maybe yoo`re gna be the one who saves me? or is it yoo. or yoo. or yoo.
but ughhs, honestly. yoo are wonderful, jst that yoo dont carry yourself in a way to show the world that. and dont even dream about feelings if yoo dont want to go all the way to embrace it. if something is worth it, dont do it by halves. and everything is so different through technology and in real life. reality is my world.
i think i can live with being me because i drive my passions. when it comes to things i believe in, i stand for it and i`d lay down the world. the stuff i believe in, the stuff i dream of, are the things im PROUD of and things that i`ll do almost everything for.
if im not your 100%, then im sorry.
save tonight, and fight the break of dawn - eagle eyed cherry.
ST! loves yoo. hahas. chatting with her now.
tday was emath ca. abit crap ahs. talked to tiffanyny last night for about one hour plus i think!? hahas doing phys lols. thanks tiffanyny! im gna miss yoo SO next year. ): all of them! the seniors. gosh, okays stop it nadia dont start thinking of it.
hahas. yay. my hp jst beeped (: shall reply soon. hmms. i dont knw waht i think. oh my, if only perfection existed. lols.
not commercial perfection y`knw?
jst perfect to me. and thats all that would matter.
okays. hahas. yoo have been spared from the mushy part of this random post starting NOW.
studying for lit ca, and gtg write the malay karangan. here`s an excerpt btwn viola, disguised as cesario, and olivia in act 3, scene 1. olivia loves cesario even though they have barely met and she is well aware of their difference in status etc yet she is throwing aside all her pride and admitting blatantly.
olivia :
cesario, by the roses of the spring,
by maidhood, honour, truth and everything,
i love thee so that, maugre all thy pride,
nor with nor reason can my passion hide.
do not extort thy reasons from this clause -
for that i woo thou therefore hast no clause.
but rather reason thus with reason fetter -
love sought is good, but given unsought, is better.
viola :
by innocence i swear, and by my youth,
i have one heart, one bosom and one truth.
and that no one has, nor ever none
shall be mistress be of it, save i alone.
and so adieu, good madam; never more
will i my masters` tears to you deplore.
olivia : yet come again, for thou perhaps mayst move
that heart, which noe abhors, to like his love.
naddddds.
i dont believe that anybody feels the way i do, about yoo now.
__SMILE (:
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